The Third Awakening

 

It was the day when everything was over. And all new has just started. The unsuccesful divorce, the abortion, the end of a happy life. Yet the empty glance through the train window never gave up on a hope. Even it was now an empty vessel for the damaged soul carrying the weight of the all sadness inside. 

No place to go. No plans for the future. Just a fresh start with the decayed end. The persona of hers was kept alive by the quote of her beloved father:,,Nothing is absolute. You've got hands to touch, eyes to see, heart to feel, world to live, shadow to never be alone." 

This quote of this fine smart man was written deep under her skin since childhood. Sometimes she found this quote depressing - like her father would have a bad intuition about something. Sometimes she found the quote cheerful. 

The scenery of the forest embracing the tracks was running backwards as the train was rushing forward. Just like the memories flowing in everybody's mind. The sky above the families of tree was grey, blue ocassionally but mostly grey with a white spots of the clouds fighting for the sun's attention. And while watching the running landscape that was captured by her camera - she felt a huge connection. To the uknown place, to the uknown moment. She felt blessed. And the whole past felt like a dream. The old life was gone and the new has just start. Right. In that place. In that train. In that moment. A birth. A freedom. 

Just out of nothing, suddenly she felt awaken. It was a first moment when the corners of her lips yanked in a small smile. The palm of her pale hand shot against the window to touch the presence which was immediately captured on the camera. And then she put it down.

To let all of the details of this awakening rip her old soul to replace it with a new. The pair of the big eyes was hidden behind the pink duo of the eyelids and she took a deep breath, saviouring the moment - just to remember. It felt like a celestial climax, more like a whole space would have kidnapped her to it's insides to whisper to her the all secrets of the universe. And she was a part of it. She was alive. Still there. Awaken.